Well, apparently I am now a Walnut Tree as well.

"Walnut Tree (Passion) -- unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise."

UPDATE on all things Reen:

~Awareness was fleeting. The focus is right back where it has always been.
~I live with 3 of the most self-absorbed human beings on the planet. I have now changed shifts and work 7-6. The problem with that is due to the morning schedules I have to get up at 4:30-5:00 am to get me ready, foster son ready and him to day care. And NO ONE CARES.

Oh, who cares if I am in the bathroom when mom needs in here?
Oh, who cares if we keep mom up until 11:00pm each night?

I could go on and on but I will just make me so upset and so angry. It is 2:00 am right now. I went to bed at 9pm. I was awakened at 10, and 11 and just now at 1:30 because the dogs wanted out. Now I can't sleep. Imagine that.

I have looked into other options but I can't afford them.

In other news, chiropractor visits have improved.

I have learned that I don't like what I have become. What happened to me? I cower in the corner - I don't even have my own space anymore so I have to hide in the bathroom. I feel like I have been abused. My heart hurts all the time except when I am at work. For some reason when I get there I forget all about B, C, B and even J.
I love it. Then of course, B calls me and yells at me for not telling him that lil B plans and so there I sit in the middle of the room where everyone can see (no more cubicles)...crying. For an hour I cried. at work.

Now everyone thinks I AM abused.

Is it time to leave for work yet...........?
Reen

My first visit to the Chiropractor was today. I am very impressed. I don't understand how it works but I went on faith. I called and made this appointment because my friend Jenny has been having such good luck with it. She (the chiropractor) was able to tell me exactly the problems I have been having. So I go back again on Thursday and then again on Monday. I will keep you posted.

One thousand prayers and happy "get-better" vibes go out to my college bud, Laura. She is going thru the whole cancer mess.

Awareness "might" be getting better. Not sure yet.

Reen