UPDATE on all things Reen:

~Awareness was fleeting. The focus is right back where it has always been.
~I live with 3 of the most self-absorbed human beings on the planet. I have now changed shifts and work 7-6. The problem with that is due to the morning schedules I have to get up at 4:30-5:00 am to get me ready, foster son ready and him to day care. And NO ONE CARES.

Oh, who cares if I am in the bathroom when mom needs in here?
Oh, who cares if we keep mom up until 11:00pm each night?

I could go on and on but I will just make me so upset and so angry. It is 2:00 am right now. I went to bed at 9pm. I was awakened at 10, and 11 and just now at 1:30 because the dogs wanted out. Now I can't sleep. Imagine that.

I have looked into other options but I can't afford them.

In other news, chiropractor visits have improved.

I have learned that I don't like what I have become. What happened to me? I cower in the corner - I don't even have my own space anymore so I have to hide in the bathroom. I feel like I have been abused. My heart hurts all the time except when I am at work. For some reason when I get there I forget all about B, C, B and even J.
I love it. Then of course, B calls me and yells at me for not telling him that lil B plans and so there I sit in the middle of the room where everyone can see (no more cubicles)...crying. For an hour I cried. at work.

Now everyone thinks I AM abused.

Is it time to leave for work yet...........?
Reen