Wow. That last post was pretty darn'd impressive especially since I don't remember typing any of it. But things have changed somewhat.

1. Rec'd call from Sandy - she will not be going with us.
2. Rec'd call from Mathew - long story but he is living in Kentucky! So he is awaiting word from me today

I don't want to go. I do not want to go at all. But I am hoping this will be one of those times when you make it thru because the Lord carries you. This happened to me with my Grandma. After my mom passed away in June, she lost the will to live. She ended up in the hospital and I kept putting off going to see her. We live a long drive away from any family so it takes an entire day to do this. On the day after I spoke to my uncle (who advised me I was running out of time to see her. I remember the night before wishing it was over. Not wanting to see my Grandma lying their ... dying.


We went the next day and we accidentally met my uncle in the elevator. He was glad we made the trip because on that day she was sitting up, talking and seemed like her old self. He stated that we picked a good day.

Two days later she was gone. No one else got to see her like I did. My uncle stated she said after we left that she "had seen everyone she needed to see" and she was ready to go.

I know that the Lord did that because I could not handle seeing my Grandmother in that condition only 1 month after losing my mom.

But today may be a different story.

Reen