Me and My Priorities
I have always tried to be perfect. Can’t help it – think what you want but I have. I only argue when I am 100% right. I don’t lie. I might have stretched the truth on occasion to make a story more enjoyable but I cannot tolerate being lied to so therefore I do not lie. My perfectionism got me into a state a while back where things were out of control that I had no control over and I was readying myself for a nice pretty nervous breakdown.
So I changed my priorities.
That was around 1998.
I am WAAAaaayyy past due for a change. Since 1998 a LOT has happened. Children adopted, loss of mothers and grandmothers and other loved ones, changed jobs twice and became a foster parent again. About 2-3 weeks ago I was so down I decided the only thing that would make me feel better would be to die. I did not want to live any longer. All joy in everything was gone. Then again I didn’t want to die. I just wanted all the stresses to go away and leave me alone.
So me & my priorities…we are a’changin’………
For the last 8 years (if not longer) I have neglected my house, my husband and myself – all for others. That is changing.
I will no longer…
>Put off cleaning /decorating my home the way I want it
>Put off fixing things around the house
>Put “fun” with my family to create lasting memories before everything else
>Put myself LAST (whose Idea was THIS???)
>Drop what I am doing because someone else is too lazy to learn what I had to learn to do it myself
>Drop what I am doing for anyone. They can wait. (only if there is pain or blood involved – I am not ‘that’ cruel!)
>Neglect my brother, nephew and other family just because they are an ‘inconvenience’ to others.
>Miss church or be late to church because of my family
>I WILL NO LONGER BE A RUG
>Lie to others
I will….
>Put God first. (God, Bryan, some others, me)
>Read my Bible
>Not let others negativity and opinion of me, my Fischer family, or Bryan alter my perception of life and how I chose to live.
>Do my best at work and not let the situations at home bother me thereI have always tried to be perfect. Can’t help it – think what you want but I have. I only argue when I am 100% right. I don’t lie. I might have stretched the truth on occasion to make a story more enjoyable but I cannot tolerate being lied to so therefore I do not lie. My perfectionism got me into a state a while back where things were out of control that I had no control over and I was readying myself for a nice pretty nervous breakdown.
So I changed my priorities.
That was around 1998.
I am WAAAaaayyy past due for a change. Since 1998 a LOT has happened. Children adopted, loss of mothers and grandmothers and other loved ones, changed jobs twice and became a foster parent again. About 2-3 weeks ago I was so down I decided the only thing that would make me feel better would be to die. I did not want to live any longer. All joy in everything was gone. Then again I didn’t want to die. I just wanted all the stresses to go away and leave me alone.
So me & my priorities…we are a’changin’………
For the last 8 years (if not longer) I have neglected my house, my husband and myself – all for others. That is changing.
I will no longer…
>Put off cleaning /decorating my home the way I want it
>Put off fixing things around the house
>Put “fun” with my family to create lasting memories before everything else
>Put myself LAST (whose Idea was THIS???)
>Drop what I am doing because someone else is too lazy to learn what I had to learn to do it myself
>Drop what I am doing for anyone. They can wait. (only if there is pain or blood involved – I am not ‘that’ cruel!)
>Neglect my brother, nephew and other family just because they are an ‘inconvenience’ to others.
>Miss church or be late to church because of my family
>I WILL NO LONGER BE A RUG
>Lie to others
I will….
>Put God first. (God, Bryan, some others, me)
>Read my Bible
>Not let others negativity and opinion of me, my Fischer family, or Bryan alter my perception of life and how I chose to live.
>Spend more time with POSITIVE people
>If I can’t find positive people I will spend more time with Skyler. He loves me.
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